Just a little over two weeks until graduation! I am both sad and excited, as I'm sure most everyone feels. It's a very busy time, end of the year senior projects and exams, trying to make sure I graduate on time. Josh is moving here for at the very least three months, and then we will see where we will go from there. He finally asked me out, and when he was here last, he said he couldn't believe he waited so long because he's so happy with me. I've had a job at Wal*Mart for the part two and a half months as a sales associate in apparel. I "zone" the entire apparel department -most of the time by myself- and open the fitting room doors. I hate it, but I'm keeping the job as long as I can stand it because it's a pay check. For some reason -and it's not my paranoia- the people around apparel really don't like me. They are suppose to help me "zone" the apparel, but don't. And they give me some bad looks too, and again, not my paranoia. I'm starting to take another downward spiral. I went back on my medication, but the doctor I go to now won't put me on what originally worked for me. Some of the bad feelings and thoughts are starting to invade. I try and talk to Josh about it, but I know it upsets him because he just blames it on himself for not "making me happy" like he's not enough for me. Which, doesn't help me at a down point. I still have the constant down...the one where I have no idea what will happen next...or if I'll make it okay to the next...  <---I made it out of boredom the other day, yes, it's based off a picture. I know, the one I made isn't nearly as kick-ass. But it's tasty and big so it'll do I guess.
 <---Still freakin' love this picture so much!
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